his 18 birthday :)

today is his birthday. he just turned 18 :)

i dunno why i feel so happy!! >< if i were in Aus, probably i'll give him a present, even its not special and expensive, may be teddy bear? haha~ so he can hug it every time he wants =,= (whatta bad idea! may be he would throw it away)

whattt did i just say? did I say i feel soo happy? nahh >< thatss not true! thats not exactly what i feel!!

I feel so disappointed right now, huhuhu... i dunno y? If i know i wont tell u either.

I tried so hard to forget him. and when i totally forgot, he came back again in my life,, he talked to me nicely so the feeling to him was growing again. and suddenly there was a miss understanding between us, so that he went far away from me. and not long after that I already forgot him (again). and about 3 months later, AGAIN! he came to me! he told me  that he like me, love me (iewww),  want me to cum back there, bla bla bla

hmmm,, but when I was crying, the first name i said was always his name! until now! and when i feel weak, in my mind was always him. it seems like i life in this world is for him isn't it??

im gonna take AFS student exchange to japan, and its JUST FOR HIM! so we can meet each other in japan and have fun there. do u think i love him too much?

has he ever thought about me like the way i think about him? I DONT THINK SO 


i wished i can talk with him on his birthday, but unfortunately i couldnt. i feel so weird, its like im the stupidest girl in the whole world