that FEELING again and again................................

as I always write in my recent blog (dunno the site), I was always writting about SHUHEI ?????? huhuhu...HE'S GOT STUCKED IN MY  MIND! i cant forget him!!!!!! but i MUST do it!!
pleaseee go awayyy from my mind........!!!!!! i know u were lying. i know u juz joking... and of course i know u dun love me as u sed before... every time i remember that ... my heart was like breaking. cause its fragile..

he's chatting with mee! he's chatting with me now!!!!!!! but I feel like so haapppppyyyy!! but.. why cant i see him anymore? why? just once.. i really wanna see him.. even he doesnt like me as he said before.. even he hates me.. i still wanna see him. see him happy with his live without me..

that FEELING is still in my heart

I'd better if I write in English.. so anyone not easy to understand it cause of my messy English...
first, I dont wanna continue with my recent posting that I wrote when I was bit confused ..
this posting is different from before..

does anyone still remember a Japanese boy that I really lovee last year?


yes! SHUHEI!!

I was chatting with him last night... first, I juz sed 'hiii' then he replied! I tought hw wont do that...
As usual , I asked about school, and life.. but he answered 'my life is good... but there's something lost from me..' and I asked, 'so whats that?'

shuhei : 'u werent here... :( I miss u...'
mee : awww.... dun be sad...
shuhei : Im sorry that i made u sad everyday...
mee : dun think abwt it.. I forgiv u
shuhei : thanks.. will u come back here?
mee : i dunno.. y?
shuhei : nope
mee : shuhei.. but u hate me before ryte?
shuhei : nooooo!!! i didnt hate u..
mee : but u told me if i was really annoying to u..
shuhei : but i didnt to say that.. sorry
mee : dun lying.. i still save all ur e-mails..
shuhei : yeaa.. but i really dont mean that
mee: but why u sed that to me?
shuhei : coz i love u
mee : no no no... u r joking ryte?
shuhei : im not! im serious..
mee : but u too late.. and y didnt u tell me before?
shuhei : actually... I really want make a relationship wif u.. but....
mee : but what?
shuhei : i was shy!!! and if we hav a relationship.. we wouldnt be happy either ryte? it juz make us more hurt.. coz u were leaving Australia..
mee : well... yea... u ryte...
shuhei : i miss u!!! i wanna see u!! I wanna go home together with u, walking or by bicycle of mine, and sometimes walk to the station with u...
mee : shuhei... i miss u too.. dont make me sad, :(
shuhei : i love u..!!! is that enough to make u happy?
mee :   well.. not really...
shuhei : btw... u already hav a *bf??            (*bf = boy friend, not blue film!)
mee : nope.. y?? wbu? u hav one?
shuhei : nope... i hav no chance..
mee : y not? u do hav it.. im sure many girls like u as i did last year..
shuhei : no... u dont understand..
mee : ahhh ok...
shuhei : u still remember ryte? we promised if we meet again u'd be my gf..?
mee : ahh yea... but i thought u were joking?
shuhei : no... im serious!!!
mee : so?
shuhei : be mine when we meet again ok??
mee : okaa....
shuhei : lol
mee : shuhei.. i wanna go to the past... i still wanna follow u when u r going home.. then look at ur face..then...
shuhei : but i wana go to the future! wanna **** uuu!!
mee : ahhh...... juz hope that we'll meet again..
shuhei : ok.. heyy! im looking at ur pictures! u r cutter.! juz same when u were in australia
mee : thanks.. gimme urs! wanna see urs!
shuhei : juz go on my facebook..
mee : woww....... cool..
shuhei : which one?
mee : japan one..
shuhei : thanks..
mee: u look younger..
shuhei : ................................................ ( cant remember)
mee :.....................................................................................
shuhei :......................................................................................
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mee : oopss... sorrrryyyy shuhei!!!
shuhei : what?
mee : i g2g.. i'll talk to u later
shuhei : oka..
mee : byee... see ya
shuhei : see ya... love u
mee : :)
shuhei :XOXOs
mee : x
shuhei: i loveeeeee u sooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh
mee : ok ok
shuhei : wanna see you. wanna walk along the beach with u. wanna go to school with u. wanna .......
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then i went off....
about xoxo : its usual. even with friends. so dun think about negative things..


after that, i went to the bed. still thought that shuhei was juz lying. cant believe if he said like that again.

so sorry.. may be I cant meet u anymore... but if we meet.. maybe we'll be just a really good friend...

CANT FORGET U!

JUST WAIT AND SEE WHAT NEXT