that FEELING again and again................................

as I always write in my recent blog (dunno the site), I was always writting about SHUHEI ?????? huhuhu...HE'S GOT STUCKED IN MY  MIND! i cant forget him!!!!!! but i MUST do it!!
pleaseee go awayyy from my mind........!!!!!! i know u were lying. i know u juz joking... and of course i know u dun love me as u sed before... every time i remember that ... my heart was like breaking. cause its fragile..

he's chatting with mee! he's chatting with me now!!!!!!! but I feel like so haapppppyyyy!! but.. why cant i see him anymore? why? just once.. i really wanna see him.. even he doesnt like me as he said before.. even he hates me.. i still wanna see him. see him happy with his live without me..

that FEELING is still in my heart

I'd better if I write in English.. so anyone not easy to understand it cause of my messy English...
first, I dont wanna continue with my recent posting that I wrote when I was bit confused ..
this posting is different from before..

does anyone still remember a Japanese boy that I really lovee last year?


yes! SHUHEI!!

I was chatting with him last night... first, I juz sed 'hiii' then he replied! I tought hw wont do that...
As usual , I asked about school, and life.. but he answered 'my life is good... but there's something lost from me..' and I asked, 'so whats that?'

shuhei : 'u werent here... :( I miss u...'
mee : awww.... dun be sad...
shuhei : Im sorry that i made u sad everyday...
mee : dun think abwt it.. I forgiv u
shuhei : thanks.. will u come back here?
mee : i dunno.. y?
shuhei : nope
mee : shuhei.. but u hate me before ryte?
shuhei : nooooo!!! i didnt hate u..
mee : but u told me if i was really annoying to u..
shuhei : but i didnt to say that.. sorry
mee : dun lying.. i still save all ur e-mails..
shuhei : yeaa.. but i really dont mean that
mee: but why u sed that to me?
shuhei : coz i love u
mee : no no no... u r joking ryte?
shuhei : im not! im serious..
mee : but u too late.. and y didnt u tell me before?
shuhei : actually... I really want make a relationship wif u.. but....
mee : but what?
shuhei : i was shy!!! and if we hav a relationship.. we wouldnt be happy either ryte? it juz make us more hurt.. coz u were leaving Australia..
mee : well... yea... u ryte...
shuhei : i miss u!!! i wanna see u!! I wanna go home together with u, walking or by bicycle of mine, and sometimes walk to the station with u...
mee : shuhei... i miss u too.. dont make me sad, :(
shuhei : i love u..!!! is that enough to make u happy?
mee :   well.. not really...
shuhei : btw... u already hav a *bf??            (*bf = boy friend, not blue film!)
mee : nope.. y?? wbu? u hav one?
shuhei : nope... i hav no chance..
mee : y not? u do hav it.. im sure many girls like u as i did last year..
shuhei : no... u dont understand..
mee : ahhh ok...
shuhei : u still remember ryte? we promised if we meet again u'd be my gf..?
mee : ahh yea... but i thought u were joking?
shuhei : no... im serious!!!
mee : so?
shuhei : be mine when we meet again ok??
mee : okaa....
shuhei : lol
mee : shuhei.. i wanna go to the past... i still wanna follow u when u r going home.. then look at ur face..then...
shuhei : but i wana go to the future! wanna **** uuu!!
mee : ahhh...... juz hope that we'll meet again..
shuhei : ok.. heyy! im looking at ur pictures! u r cutter.! juz same when u were in australia
mee : thanks.. gimme urs! wanna see urs!
shuhei : juz go on my facebook..
mee : woww....... cool..
shuhei : which one?
mee : japan one..
shuhei : thanks..
mee: u look younger..
shuhei : ................................................ ( cant remember)
mee :.....................................................................................
shuhei :......................................................................................
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mee : oopss... sorrrryyyy shuhei!!!
shuhei : what?
mee : i g2g.. i'll talk to u later
shuhei : oka..
mee : byee... see ya
shuhei : see ya... love u
mee : :)
shuhei :XOXOs
mee : x
shuhei: i loveeeeee u sooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh
mee : ok ok
shuhei : wanna see you. wanna walk along the beach with u. wanna go to school with u. wanna .......
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then i went off....
about xoxo : its usual. even with friends. so dun think about negative things..


after that, i went to the bed. still thought that shuhei was juz lying. cant believe if he said like that again.

so sorry.. may be I cant meet u anymore... but if we meet.. maybe we'll be just a really good friend...

CANT FORGET U!

JUST WAIT AND SEE WHAT NEXT

BALI

sorryyy i havent update any of my blog.. Im sick now..
I juz came back from Bali. I had a new experiment from there. but things I want to write here is abwt bad things..
u do know I 'like' someone in my class. u do know his name.. from now on, I wanna write about him.

we're not in the same bus when we went there. its has not to be a problem.. but idk y i always wanted to see him. i think he knows that I like him, but he pretends to be don't know.
that night @ shop, I asked my friend to help me, to take a pic of him... Then she did it. He was in the downstairs, and my friend straight away went to him. I waited in the upstairs. i juz wanna know, did my friend get his pic???????? i was shocked when I saw them talking. what were they doing???????

> to be continued

Its a boriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggg dayy !

as usual last night i chatted with *someone... idk what was he talking about. may be abwt our relationship ayy... hahahha. Damn he was so funny and made me ummm.... make me interested on him. whatever. but thats the point. idk he was serious or its kinda joke? hummm.. thinking of it just make me confused.......

what about today?????? ahhhhh shit. no one online on my facebook list. what the hell is that! juz couple of people ( i dont really  know who they are, coz we're not close). so what am i gonna do this weekend? my best friend's (Lily), house is far from my house.... and no one wanna hang out today.. coz their wallets are empty, same as mine. :(

Ok.... may be I'll juz dying now....
see yahh

cool!!

from yesterday, i went to the new class roomits cool!! and they're friendly!! but, the work were pretty hard. but, doesn't matter cause, next week, im not going back!~
but, i love to study in there except 4 sport! i dont like it! i hate it. , when i was in primary school, i love sports!!
yaya,, now is different!!!!!

huh,, tomorrow is the last day in woll'ng high...i think i'll miss them.................

dreaming

every night,
i was dreaming.....
it's not a gud dream,,
its just my imagination.....
wit sum1 that i lyk..........................

in my dream,
i was his g.f >.<
nd we're alwayz together...
he always makes me laugh, smile and happy^^
nd I was melting..............................

i think its time to stop,
to stop thinking all bout him!!!!!

bye^^
time to go to skwl!

my dream

- In the middle of the night, A dream wakes me up. It was not very good dream Maybe it's my nightmare. When I started my day It's still stuck on my mind And that thing ruined my day Made my head spin around, But why should I believe my dream will come true And I don't have any reason to believe that. all of my dreams will come true. My dream says that you'll leave. Leave me here on my own. Leave me to breakdown and cry. There's nothing left for me. Maybe I should not trust, Maybe I should not ask Or did I push you too hard, so you leave me. But why should I believe my dream will come true And I don't have any reason to believe those all of my dreams will come true!