HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

heyyy guys! its almost 2010! what have u done on 2009??? is it good thing or the other things?
3 HOURS left!!!!!!!!!!! come on......!! cant wait it!!
hmmm.... I remembered last year on 31 of December 2008... I stayed a night at my friend's house...
and now... I'm just staying at home... ALONE. just wif my brother. coz my dad and my mum are sleeping... hhmmmff... thats boring! so I'm just watching anime movie ... from Spirited Away (MY FAV FOREVER!), My Neighbor Totoro, Grave of the fireflies (sadest movie), and bla bla bla...

see ya!
Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

my x .

maros. i miss you.

 

Kehilangan Bukan Segalanya

Suatu ketika, seorang bapak tua hendak menumpang bus. Pada saat ia menginjakkan kakinya ke tangga, salah satu sepatu barunya terlepas dan jatuh kejalan. Lalu pintu tertutup dan bus mulai bergerak, sehingga ia tak sempat memungut sepatunya yang terlepas.

Namun, si bapak tua itu kemudian melepas sepatunya yang sebelah dan malah melemparkannya keluar jendela.

Seorang pemuda yang duduk disebelahnya melihat kejadian itu, dan bertanya kepada bapak tua, "Saya memperhatikan apa yang anda lakukan, mengapa anda melemparkan sepatu anda yang sebelah lagi?" tanyanya heran.

Si bapak tua menjawab,"Supaya siapapun yang menemukan sepatuku bisa memanfaatkannya."

Si bapak tua dalam cerita ini mengajarkan bahwa tak ada gunanya mempertahankan sesuatu hanya karena dia ingin memilikinya, karena dia tidak ingin orang lain memiliki barang berharga miliknya.
Kita kerap kehilangan banyak hal sepanjang disepanjang masa hidup.

Kehilangan itu pada awalnya tampak seperti tidak adil dan merisaukan, tapi itu sebenarnya terjadi supaya ada perubahan positive yang terjadi dalam hidup kita.

Contoh diatas tidak hanya bisa terjadi untuk hal-hal yang jelek saja, kadang kita juga kehilangan hal-hal yang baik. Ini semua dimaksudkan, agar kita bisa menjadi lebih dewasa secara emosional dan spiritual, pertukaran antara kehilangan sesuatu danmendapatkan sesuatu harus terjadi.

Seperti bapak tua diatas, kadang kita harus belajar untuk melepaskan sesuatu. Tuhan sudah menentukan bahwa itulah saatnya si bapak tua itu kehilangan sepatunya.
Bisa jadi, peristiwa itu terjadi agar si bapak tua kelak mendapatkan sepasang sepatu yang lebih baik.
Tapi dengan melempar sebelah sepatu keluar jendela, sepatu itu akan mendaji "hadiah" yang berharga bagi gelandangan yang menemukannya.

Berkeras mempertahankan sesuatu yang bukan kehendak-Nya, tidak membuat kita atau dunia menjadi lebih baik. Pada saatnya, kita harus mengumpulkan keberanian untuk melepaskan itu semua.OKEH?
Sumber: buku Losing is winning

what

no i dont know whats going on out there but? argh shit.! even i write about it in English, no one read it anyway.
1. what happen to 'shuhei'? why doesnt he contact me?
2. same as above. diferent person. wont write his name here, maybe he already understand (pssst he has a blogger too.!)
3. why didnt i get money from my parents?
4. why am i too easy to getting angry with no reason?
and other stupid question.


apa sih? kenapa? ada apa? aku tuh nggaa bisa ngertiin yang tersirat. dah deh mau apa ngomong aja.

please dehhh ahhhh. Internetan itu menyita waktu!!!!!!!!!

internet menyita waktu.
 

that FEELING again and again................................

as I always write in my recent blog (dunno the site), I was always writting about SHUHEI ?????? huhuhu...HE'S GOT STUCKED IN MY  MIND! i cant forget him!!!!!! but i MUST do it!!
pleaseee go awayyy from my mind........!!!!!! i know u were lying. i know u juz joking... and of course i know u dun love me as u sed before... every time i remember that ... my heart was like breaking. cause its fragile..

he's chatting with mee! he's chatting with me now!!!!!!! but I feel like so haapppppyyyy!! but.. why cant i see him anymore? why? just once.. i really wanna see him.. even he doesnt like me as he said before.. even he hates me.. i still wanna see him. see him happy with his live without me..

that FEELING is still in my heart

I'd better if I write in English.. so anyone not easy to understand it cause of my messy English...
first, I dont wanna continue with my recent posting that I wrote when I was bit confused ..
this posting is different from before..

does anyone still remember a Japanese boy that I really lovee last year?


yes! SHUHEI!!

I was chatting with him last night... first, I juz sed 'hiii' then he replied! I tought hw wont do that...
As usual , I asked about school, and life.. but he answered 'my life is good... but there's something lost from me..' and I asked, 'so whats that?'

shuhei : 'u werent here... :( I miss u...'
mee : awww.... dun be sad...
shuhei : Im sorry that i made u sad everyday...
mee : dun think abwt it.. I forgiv u
shuhei : thanks.. will u come back here?
mee : i dunno.. y?
shuhei : nope
mee : shuhei.. but u hate me before ryte?
shuhei : nooooo!!! i didnt hate u..
mee : but u told me if i was really annoying to u..
shuhei : but i didnt to say that.. sorry
mee : dun lying.. i still save all ur e-mails..
shuhei : yeaa.. but i really dont mean that
mee: but why u sed that to me?
shuhei : coz i love u
mee : no no no... u r joking ryte?
shuhei : im not! im serious..
mee : but u too late.. and y didnt u tell me before?
shuhei : actually... I really want make a relationship wif u.. but....
mee : but what?
shuhei : i was shy!!! and if we hav a relationship.. we wouldnt be happy either ryte? it juz make us more hurt.. coz u were leaving Australia..
mee : well... yea... u ryte...
shuhei : i miss u!!! i wanna see u!! I wanna go home together with u, walking or by bicycle of mine, and sometimes walk to the station with u...
mee : shuhei... i miss u too.. dont make me sad, :(
shuhei : i love u..!!! is that enough to make u happy?
mee :   well.. not really...
shuhei : btw... u already hav a *bf??            (*bf = boy friend, not blue film!)
mee : nope.. y?? wbu? u hav one?
shuhei : nope... i hav no chance..
mee : y not? u do hav it.. im sure many girls like u as i did last year..
shuhei : no... u dont understand..
mee : ahhh ok...
shuhei : u still remember ryte? we promised if we meet again u'd be my gf..?
mee : ahh yea... but i thought u were joking?
shuhei : no... im serious!!!
mee : so?
shuhei : be mine when we meet again ok??
mee : okaa....
shuhei : lol
mee : shuhei.. i wanna go to the past... i still wanna follow u when u r going home.. then look at ur face..then...
shuhei : but i wana go to the future! wanna **** uuu!!
mee : ahhh...... juz hope that we'll meet again..
shuhei : ok.. heyy! im looking at ur pictures! u r cutter.! juz same when u were in australia
mee : thanks.. gimme urs! wanna see urs!
shuhei : juz go on my facebook..
mee : woww....... cool..
shuhei : which one?
mee : japan one..
shuhei : thanks..
mee: u look younger..
shuhei : ................................................ ( cant remember)
mee :.....................................................................................
shuhei :......................................................................................
.................................................................................................
mee : oopss... sorrrryyyy shuhei!!!
shuhei : what?
mee : i g2g.. i'll talk to u later
shuhei : oka..
mee : byee... see ya
shuhei : see ya... love u
mee : :)
shuhei :XOXOs
mee : x
shuhei: i loveeeeee u sooooooo muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh
mee : ok ok
shuhei : wanna see you. wanna walk along the beach with u. wanna go to school with u. wanna .......
..........................................................................................................................................................

then i went off....
about xoxo : its usual. even with friends. so dun think about negative things..


after that, i went to the bed. still thought that shuhei was juz lying. cant believe if he said like that again.

so sorry.. may be I cant meet u anymore... but if we meet.. maybe we'll be just a really good friend...

CANT FORGET U!

JUST WAIT AND SEE WHAT NEXT