the day

 

celebrating 100days

lesson learned!

This afternoon I had no activity at all. Just laid on bed because I was a little sick. I daydreamed and thought about the reasons why he loved me. I feel like I need him so so damn much just like I need water to cool the throat and rice for my energy. And that was the time when I asked him, "why do we eat rice every day and drink water but we do not get bored?" and he answered

Soalnya kita butuh mereka setiap harinya, sama seperti aku butuh kamu

Felt more curious , I asked again "we need vegetables and fruits, but why do we get bored with them?" and he replied with a very thoughtful answer.

Kamu tau? Nasi, buah, sayur, lauk, sama air/susu kan? Ibaratnya nasi sama air itu jiwa/hati sama kejujuran, menurutku bagian paling vital manusia itu ya dua itu. Terus sayur, lauk sama buah itu ibaratnya raga, jabatan sama harta. Harta, jabatan sama raga hanya sebagai pelengkap hidup kita. Mereka semua emang penting, tapi kalau kita punya raga yang sempurna harta yang melimpah mereka nggak akan berguna, ngga akan berkah selama kita nggak punya hati yang bersih dan kejujuran. Hati dan kejujuran itu ngga bisa ditipu, dimanipulasi, ngga akan berubah sampai kita mati. Tapi kalau kita bisa mengelola semua itu baik-baik, kita bakal sampai pada puncaknya, kebahagiaan. Orang pasti pingin lebih dari jabatannya yang sekarang, harta yang dimiliki sekarang, keindahan raga yang sekarang. Makanya mereka cepat bosan sama apa yang mereka miliki sekarang sebelum mendapat kebahagiaan

until this second, he made me amazed.

primary key : honesty

honesty. is the primary key for everything, not least for a relationship. honesty. some are pleasant to hear, like "I love you" and others. but how painful honesty? honesty that is very painful when it is said, but if we do not say it, the one who have been lied would be feel more painful? 

well, to be honest is not an easy thing to say. it needs a huge courage

it slowly dies , left in the past.

being betrayed isn't just an easy thing to face. do you think with giving me this flower i will come back to your side?

celebrating the little thing

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey! even the day is still 5 more days, I'm already feeling so excited! life has taught me to make a habit out of celebrating the little thing, and we're almost 100 days ! even on our last month I deliberately didnt give him anything, but for celebrating our 100-day i made something colorful to surprise him. 100 paper cranes in all different colours, they just so pretty look like rainbow inside the jar. unfortunately i had to make my own cardboard to make the jar easy to wrap. such a really hand-made gift.

 100 paper-cranes on our 100 days.

I enjoyed every second when I was with him. I thank God everytime for finally giving someone who are very kind to me, who always respect me all the time. He came when I was very fragile because I was left by someone who was really precious for me that time, sometimes i still miss the old times, but here I am now with someone else who worth my love, my time. but why do i still feel incomplete? maybe i just need some times.
by the way, happy 100 days for us lama imhaf !

don't get thirsty

The time goes too fast, it's already fasting time! When we are fasting we often get some trouble facing it.  Most people think the difficulty about fasting is feeling “hungry”.  However, avoiding thirst is much more important for how you feel.  Not only do you avoid the discomfort of thirst but you are also well hydrated and swallow frequently, so your stomach does not feel as empty.

First important rule is to avoid consuming much salt.   Salt causes a person to feel thirsty despite having a “normal” amount of water, because extra water is needed for the extra salt.  Happy fasting everyone !

third

As you all know this year will be my 3rd year in High School which means i will be facing all of these Try-Outs, Final Exams, and blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs. I really need to focus on these so sadly i just have to eliminate some stuffs that has nothing to do with school. sigh. Maybe i wont be able to connect to Maya World and face the-real-world.

This month is my (our) third months anniversary. Many things happened on the last 3 months. Being with him is the most precious time in my life. time has thought me to be more patient and not just think for my self. i just looooooooove being with him. a lot.