Radical Reconsiderations

What if you weren’t stuck?
What if you had enough time?
What if you could take that fear, rearrange its pieces, and use your handiwork as rocket fuel?
Who would you be?
What if you said a prayer of appreciation for all that’s overwhelming you?
What if you threw off the cloak of self-doubt?
What if you said no – with love?
How would you feel?
What if the opposite of all that’s troubling you right now was true?
Where would you be?
What would you do?
What would my biggest, most powerful and courageous self do?

Making me happy

I present to you: Things I Love, a (not definitive) list of things that light me up and soothe my soul:

Exercise, movement, a thumping heartbeat. Tender ‘I love you’s’ whispered in the middle of the night.  Unhinged silliness. Hand-holding in bed. The kind of delirious laughter that brings tears to your eyes. Mexican food. Asian food. The adrenalin rush of an inspired idea. The faculties of the mind. Coaching, guidance, lifting up. The ocean. Ancient traditions, rituals, cultures and customs. Books, glorious books. Entrepreneurship. Witty captions on animal photos. Quotes.  Post-long run highs. 11:11.

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Unrelenting commitment. Soul sistas. Exploration and adventure.  Kinesiology. List-making. Being married to the most beautiful person I know. Family. The crispness of a new Moleskine journal. Colour. Effortless style. Pastels. Neons. Blue Sky. Artisans. Lip gloss. Michael Jackson. Alternative music. Booty-shakin’ RnB/ pop/ dance beats. Creative sovereignty. Tickles. My parent’s hybrid accents. Clean sheets. Crystals. Gut-knowing. Green juice vigour. Swirly, free-flowing handwriting. Rosehip oil. Green grass

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Meditation. Unapologetic exclamation mark use (see! and!!) Peonies. Shower sparks (of the ‘aha!’ moment variety). Familiarity . The un-self-conscious ease of a child experiencing joy (usually evidenced by bounding/ twirling/ cartwheeling/ running with glee). Gold and silver sequins. Mornings. Rustic outdoor tables decorated with candles, wine, wildflowers and conversation. Soul-stirring documentaries. Biographies. People – people with stories and big dreams. History. The Internet. The warm, shaky hand of an old soul. Deeply etched lines on the face of a human who has lived. H20. Intention, elegance, eloquence and desire.

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There’s so much more but I believe these things should just pour out unedited, and this is my outpouring today.

What about you?

What treasures shimmer and sparkle on your Things I Love list?

Making Me Happy

Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don’t know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you’re tired and weary
Because it means you’ve made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are
also thankful for the setbacks.

Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles
and they can become your blessings.

~ Author Unknown

Is life fair?

Kenapa ya sebagian orang dengan mudahnya dapetin semua yang mereka pinginin sedangkan kita harus kerja keras untuk buat dapetin sebagian kecil dari itu semua?

Well, I'm sure most people will probably talk about it or just leave it unspoken and save the thoughts on their own minds, and think about why life is unfair to some people.
Just few minutes ago I tweeted it and some of my friends successfully answered my anxiety

 

yang aku tau

aku nggak tau kenapa kamu begitu baik sama aku
aku nggak tau kenapa kamu perhatian banget sama aku
aku nggak tau kenapa kamu bisa suka sama aku
aku nggak tau kenapa kamu bisa sayang sama aku
aku nggak tau kenapa perasaan sayangmu bisa tumbuh jadi cinta 
aku nggak tau kenapa kamu begitu sabar sama aku yang egois, galak dan cuek
aku nggak tau kenapa kamu bisa menerima dan mencintai semua kekuranganku
aku nggak tau kenapa kamu nggak pernah minta apapun dari aku, 
aku nggak tau kenapa kamu hanya terus dan terus kasihin kasihsayang buat aku
aku nggak tau. yang aku tau kamu sayang sama aku
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Even the day is still 4 more days, but ...
Happy 4 months anniversary Amal Fahmi , I love you. You're my everything and I'm grateful for each day that I've had the privilege of being your girlfriend. I haven't regretted not even a moment of being in love with you

a few steps backward. 2008!

me, my self . I'm Noviana Humaira

black-grey furry

I had a cat when I was in Australia. the first day I arrived, I decided to take a walk to see and feel the new atmosphere. I had to adapt my self cause I lived there about a year. being oversea. lucky? yes. Im so lucky to have father like my dad

When I took a walk with my family, there was a cat which is. following us. until we got home again! Even my dad wouldn't let me keep him, yet I always fed him, and that made him loyal to me and my family. He used to wait in front of the door every morning. every morning. do you think he's still alive? :(

Thomas. 2008 {Gwynneville - Wollongong, NSW Australia.}

tanpa

mencintaimu. tanpa batas. tanpa balas - NH

introduce the new

I lost my turtle Oreo for a week. but he already came back to his beloved pond. I feel so so so pity for him because he didn't have a friend which is the same species. yesterday I finally bought a new turtle. I named it Slayolay . He officially became a member of my family at 31th July. Say hello to my blushful Slayolay !

I love you as in childhood

Garuda Wisnu Kencana - Bali, 17th April 2012. 17:17pm. 

meet the spice

by words

soalnya kamu pilihan hidupku selama ini. aku merasa kita cocok. kamu sempurna buat aku. kayanya ngga ada alasan kenapa aku sayang kamu. sayangku ngga bersyarat. kaya yang ada manggil dari dalam hati… kalau kamu bakal jadi jodohku - A.F

the day

 

celebrating 100days

lesson learned!

This afternoon I had no activity at all. Just laid on bed because I was a little sick. I daydreamed and thought about the reasons why he loved me. I feel like I need him so so damn much just like I need water to cool the throat and rice for my energy. And that was the time when I asked him, "why do we eat rice every day and drink water but we do not get bored?" and he answered

Soalnya kita butuh mereka setiap harinya, sama seperti aku butuh kamu

Felt more curious , I asked again "we need vegetables and fruits, but why do we get bored with them?" and he replied with a very thoughtful answer.

Kamu tau? Nasi, buah, sayur, lauk, sama air/susu kan? Ibaratnya nasi sama air itu jiwa/hati sama kejujuran, menurutku bagian paling vital manusia itu ya dua itu. Terus sayur, lauk sama buah itu ibaratnya raga, jabatan sama harta. Harta, jabatan sama raga hanya sebagai pelengkap hidup kita. Mereka semua emang penting, tapi kalau kita punya raga yang sempurna harta yang melimpah mereka nggak akan berguna, ngga akan berkah selama kita nggak punya hati yang bersih dan kejujuran. Hati dan kejujuran itu ngga bisa ditipu, dimanipulasi, ngga akan berubah sampai kita mati. Tapi kalau kita bisa mengelola semua itu baik-baik, kita bakal sampai pada puncaknya, kebahagiaan. Orang pasti pingin lebih dari jabatannya yang sekarang, harta yang dimiliki sekarang, keindahan raga yang sekarang. Makanya mereka cepat bosan sama apa yang mereka miliki sekarang sebelum mendapat kebahagiaan

until this second, he made me amazed.

primary key : honesty

honesty. is the primary key for everything, not least for a relationship. honesty. some are pleasant to hear, like "I love you" and others. but how painful honesty? honesty that is very painful when it is said, but if we do not say it, the one who have been lied would be feel more painful? 

well, to be honest is not an easy thing to say. it needs a huge courage

it slowly dies , left in the past.

being betrayed isn't just an easy thing to face. do you think with giving me this flower i will come back to your side?

celebrating the little thing

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey! even the day is still 5 more days, I'm already feeling so excited! life has taught me to make a habit out of celebrating the little thing, and we're almost 100 days ! even on our last month I deliberately didnt give him anything, but for celebrating our 100-day i made something colorful to surprise him. 100 paper cranes in all different colours, they just so pretty look like rainbow inside the jar. unfortunately i had to make my own cardboard to make the jar easy to wrap. such a really hand-made gift.

 100 paper-cranes on our 100 days.

I enjoyed every second when I was with him. I thank God everytime for finally giving someone who are very kind to me, who always respect me all the time. He came when I was very fragile because I was left by someone who was really precious for me that time, sometimes i still miss the old times, but here I am now with someone else who worth my love, my time. but why do i still feel incomplete? maybe i just need some times.
by the way, happy 100 days for us lama imhaf !

don't get thirsty

The time goes too fast, it's already fasting time! When we are fasting we often get some trouble facing it.  Most people think the difficulty about fasting is feeling “hungry”.  However, avoiding thirst is much more important for how you feel.  Not only do you avoid the discomfort of thirst but you are also well hydrated and swallow frequently, so your stomach does not feel as empty.

First important rule is to avoid consuming much salt.   Salt causes a person to feel thirsty despite having a “normal” amount of water, because extra water is needed for the extra salt.  Happy fasting everyone !

third

As you all know this year will be my 3rd year in High School which means i will be facing all of these Try-Outs, Final Exams, and blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs. I really need to focus on these so sadly i just have to eliminate some stuffs that has nothing to do with school. sigh. Maybe i wont be able to connect to Maya World and face the-real-world.

This month is my (our) third months anniversary. Many things happened on the last 3 months. Being with him is the most precious time in my life. time has thought me to be more patient and not just think for my self. i just looooooooove being with him. a lot.

white place

i wrote this thing when i was about 13, its not really bad i think, cause its written from my deepest heart

don't wanna see...
see you lay on the bed
every second,.
in a white place.
and I hate when the doctor said,
"sorry lady, your mother is ill, please stay outside"
and I hate when she said,
"its allright honey, I'll be okay"

everyone knows she's not okay.
esspesially my self.
it was really hurting my ears
to knows you're sick